August 2005


Personalhelveticaman on 25 Aug 2005 10:21 pm

It is my understanding that as of yesterday (correct me if my I’m wrong) Mercury is no longer in retrograde, and perhaps my life will go back to normal, whatever that means.

For the last few days/weeks I have attributed my wild hair to the steroids I was taking (and am now off of) for my Crohn’s disease. But I’m also well aware of astrological influences, even if I don’t believe in all that stuff. Certain things have been relevant.

I don’t know when the stars corrected themselves, but I felt it Saturday night. I know others felt it too…

If it isn’t Mercury, it is something else; something has changed, and there’s got to be some more change in my life to come. This time last year my life changed drastically, and for a while I thought I was just experiencing a shadow or imprint of that. But again, like clock work, my life is changing again.

I got the call yesterday saying that my mortgage was approved, and I will in fact be buying a house (I close on Friday). So my living arrangements will be very different. I currently live alone, sharing the Portico with my neighbor and close friend Buddy. And I lament having to give that luxury away. But I will have roommates in the new house (for better or for worse), and I’m excited.

I taught my first class last night. I was nervous for about 5 minutes, but then just let it all go. My students seem o.k. One of them had a birthday Monday and I smiled as I announced it to the class. We didn’t sing or anything because I didn’t really think that would have been appropriate, but it was noted. I’m also taking two classes and feel like I’m going to love both–especially the professors. Language Theory is going to take some major time commitments, and quite possibly kick my ass, but I’m really interested. It is going to be an exciting and busy year.

Dating has been sporadic and difficult in the past few weeks. I’ve had some great times and met some fantastic people, but somehow I feel it will all change. I don’t know if this feeling means that I’m going to go through a dry spell, or if that I’ll finally settle down for a while with someone. We’ll see.

Any how, after some crazy feelings on Saturday night, and a spooky situation where I was listening to Ben Folds - Evaporated and was suddenly confronted with a lyric (out of the blue): “it’s all smiles and business these days,” I made the following playlist. It doesn’t go out to anyone in particular, but is more representative of me.

“If there were no music…”

Poe Hello The Used Yesterday Feelings Straylight Run Tool Sheds and Hot Tubs REM Everybody Hurts The Charlatans Try Again Today Jet Look What You’ve Done Interpol Not Even Jail Duran Duran Come Undone Sheryl Crow Tomorrow Never Dies Annie Lennox Ev’ry Time We Say Goodbye Fiona Apple Never Is A Promise Des’Ree Kissing You Moby Dream About Me Shawn Colvin I Don’t Know Why Mazzy Star Fade into You Natalie Merchant Last Goodbye
Personalhelveticaman on 16 Aug 2005 12:02 pm

I’ve been in a strange funk lately, and I couldn’t quite understand why until just now. First I thought I was just getting antsy because of my recent house purchase (I’m in this hellish closing process right now), and subsequent move from my favorite apartment/life ever…

There are, of course, other things going on as well that I shouldn’t mention here (after all I have to respect my own privacy, don’t I?), but nothing warrants the playlist I just created: Debbie Downer.

It wasn’t till the second song on the list that brought me back one year (today, or close to it) when I first heard this song. Dustin and I had just split, and I moved into the portico. The rest of the story is too tragic to mention, except that it was as low as I’ve ever been. And today I feel the imprint of that time, like remembering a loved one’s death date, or the seasonal depression you feel at the beginning of the decent into fall, then to winter.

So here’s Debbie Downer, one of the saddest playlist I’ve ever created, listen with caution:

Concretes
The Concretes

This One’s For You
The Vines
Winning Days

Winning Days
Ben Folds
Rockin' the Suburbs

Not The Same
Jet
Get Born

Look What You’ve Done
Broken Social Scene
Bee Hives

Lover’s Spit
Tori Amos
Boys for Pele

Putting The Damage On
The Owls
Our Hopes and Dreams

Drop Me A Line
Metric
Old World Underground, Where Are You Now?

Calculation Theme
Interpol
Turn On the Bright Lights

NYC
Counting Crows
This Desert Life

Colorblind
Ben Folds Five
Whatever and Ever Amen

Evaporated
Beck
Sea Change

Lost Cause
Tom Waits
The Asylum Years

Tom Traubert’s Blues
Low
Secret Name

Weight of Water
Paula Cole
This Fire

Nietzsche’s Eyes
Personalhelveticaman on 12 Aug 2005 03:49 pm

Lately I’ve been really taken with creating mix CDs for friends, etc., and decided I should post this playlist (and future ones) here.

If any of these songs appeared in a CD that I’ve made for you in the past, be cool: the same song can be used for different reasons in different situations.

If you’d like me to make you a CD, let me know and I’ll try to work it out. I have to know you pretty well…

Of course, anyone should feel free to make me a CD either for real or virtually (by sending me a playlist).

This CD is titled Hesitation.

Morningwood
Morningwood

Jetsetter
Metric
Old World Underground, Where Are You Now?

I.O.U.
Rilo Kiley
More Adventurous

Portions for Foxes
Death Cab for Cutie
Transatlanticism

Expo ‘86
Elefant
Sunlight Makes Me Paranoid

Misfit
She Wants Revenge
She Wants Revenge

Out Of Control
Lake Trout
Not Them, You

Now We Know
Of Montreal
The Sunlandic Twins

The Party’s Crashing Us
Embrace (UK)
Out of Nothing

Ashes
The Owls
Our Hopes and Dreams

Air
Pete Yorn
Musicforthemorningafter

Strange Condition
Alexi Murdoch
Four Songs

Song For You
Aqualung
Still Life

Everything Changed
Radiohead
The Bends

High and Dry
Jayhawks
Tomorrow the Green Grass

Blue
Optiganally Yours
Optiganally Yours Presents: Exclusively Talentmaker

Held
Iron & Wine
The Creek Drank the Cradle

Bird Stealing Bread
Broken Social Scene
Bee Hives

Lover’s Spit

Currently reading:

Diary of a Worm
Diary of a Worm
Author: Doreen Cronin
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Personalhelveticaman on 02 Aug 2005 09:36 pm

I don’t know how (to do either).

“yeah you are beautiful, buy you don’t mean a thing to me”

Currently listening to Tiny Vessels:

Transatlanticism
Transatlanticism
Artist: Death Cab for Cutie
Rating: 0